Doing Better

The last few days have been a trial of patience. I have been off emotionally and that doesn't leave much room for patience with the kids. I am happy to report I am doing much much better now and I'm feeling like my old self again. Thanks to everyone who listened to me and offered words of wisdom to help me get by. I've been doing a little soul searching to figure out why I am disastisfied and have come to several conclusions. I also asked myself, of those things, what are the items I can control and do something about? One of the big pressures for me and our household is our financial situation. We are just getting by. All the bills get paid and we have food on the table but there is absolutely nothing left. Most often I can't fill my vehicle with gas so I'm stuck at home. I can't spontaneously bring home pizza for dinner or take my kids to the pool or buy ice cream or any of those small things that are enjoyable. If something drastic should happen we are screwed. I realized that I can help with this and having a little extra cash would be very helpful. So I'm going to start to look for a part-time evening or weekend job. I have already put in an application with Wal-Mart and will be sending more applications out there soon. I have decided that the kids are still my first priority so if I can't find a job that will work around my being home with them then it wasn't meant to be and I'll keep trudging on. I think a part-time job will help with my sanity a bit too. I have been feeling so isolated and alone. I don't have any girlfriends or other adults to talk to or hang out with. I recently met a woman at the church that I feel comfortable with and we went for a walk yesterday. It was so nice to get outside and I hope that we develop a good friendship. Keep us in your prayers as I pursue this new avenue for work and that the right position will fall into our laps.